Identity Crisis

Do you identify with a tarot court card? I have always thought of myself as a King of Swords/Queen of Pentacles-type girl. But lately, I’ve been having an identity crisis or sorts. It all started at this year’s MATS. Julie Cuccia-Watts did a workshop on the four Queens. At one point we randomly pulled a court card and had to do a reading for our partner as that card. I drew the Queen of Wands. I’ve never been completely comfortable with the Wands in general and certainly could not relate to the Queen of Wands (although I do admire people who do).

Last week I was on vacation and pulled a card about what I need to focus on. I used the special edition Majors Only Gaian Tarot by Joanna Powell Colbert (the trade version will be out in 2011) and got Strength.

Joanna Powell Colbert writes “Our Lady of Strength, the solar female….” This made me think of my recent encounter with the Queen of Wands, another solar female (to me, anyhow).

That night, we sat on the shore of Lake Superior and watched the moon rise, huge in blazing red and orange hues. Like many, I think of the moon as feminine…and seeing it warm and fiery made me think again of the solar female. Also shining in the night sky was Jupiter, brightly reflecting the sun. Jupiter, the planet of luck, which was comforting.

It seems as though the Universe is conspiring to help me pay attention to the message: embrace your inner Queen of Wands. I am not quite sure where it’ll all lead, but I am pretty sure it won’t be boring.

What court cards do you identify or don’t identify with? Maybe there should be a spread for when we need to call on parts of ourselves that aren’t usually in the forefront of our personality.