Top 10 Problems of Being A Small Town Pagan
As an added bonus to our interview with author Bronwen Forbes, I asked her to make up a list of the top ten difficulties of living in a small town as a Pagan. She commented, “I swear I am not making any of these up in full — all are based on actual comments or my own experiences!” Here then, are her Top 10 Problems of Being a Small Town Pagan:
10. Wondering whether or not you should ask your 5th grade teacher (who is also the town seamstress) to make your ritual robes.
9. Being visited by the Gnome Liberation Front because your front yard is overpopulated with the little ceramic buggers.
8. Having to drive 150 miles one way for incense charcoal — and then realizing you also need the incense to go with it when you’re halfway home.
7. Trying to explain to a horse’s owner just what you’re going to do with her horse’s used shoes — and she’s been your best friend since kindergarten and knows darn well you don’t like to play horseshoes.
6. The funny looks from your neighbors because you have the most decorated house on the block for Halloween and you barely manage to put a wreath on your door for Christmas.
5. For newcomers — getting lost a lot because everyone tells you how to get somewhere by actually using the four directions and you’ve only ever used the four directions in ritual.
4. Realizing you’re allergic to the wheat stalks you’ve brought inside to decorate your house for Lammas.
3. Forgetting to change out of ritual garb after attending a Pagan festival and having to explain to your busybody old neighbor that you really have been camping for the weekend when you get out of the car in robes (forgetting to put on clothes after the same festival is worse!).
2. Dating. Enough said.
1. When your town library shares space with the local tanning salon and the term “sun-worshipper” takes on a whole new meaning for a bookworm like you.
What about you? What are your pet peeves or your trials and tribulations of living in a small town? Share with us!
I have people telling their children not to be around me. Very depressing when the teenager has tried to commet suicide twice in their home with out them knowing about it. While I and my husband talked her out of it.
Hmm… one, is the small amount of New Age shops, at least in this town (Green Bay, WI).
Still getting asked if you do “black magic”. Even after you explain no..then being asked if the Devil is involved in it.
same here in Appleton WI….But the one we have is AWESOME and HUGE! way better then the bunch they have in Milwaukee…having moved from there to here…
No New Age shop.
No UU.
No pagan friendly anything…
Got very funny looks as to why a religion study group needs to rent a private room at the library.
Businesses around here advertise they are a Christian business in the newspaper and on their buildings.
Going to a church parking lot at Halloween to do “Trunk or Treat” (I guess going door to door is becoming ‘old’, so people line up their cars in the church parking lot and pass out candy from their decorated trucks)You also get pamphlets about the church and God saving you and they hand out Bibles: all this gets put into the kid’s treat bag…
I don’t consider the Twin Cities (Minneapolis/St. Paul) to be small, but we only have 2 shops here. Both are fab and I’m so grateful for them. I do order some things online, but I always, always, always try to find it at the stores first. We need to support our local shops to keep them here!
I grew up in a town of 2,000 people that had 20+ churches and half of those were Baptist. Being anything but Christian was completely unheard of.
There are quite a number of us in my area, but we have to keep everything guarded. There are so many churches that are out to save my soul! We have on Metaphysical store, but I d on’t agree with the business owners’ ideas on charging a lot of money to keep the “sacredness” of an object or class. Ah well. We are all learning to create our own items or drive an hour or more to get what we need.
I live in Sydney, quite close to the city but have some gorgeous areas of bushland around. I went for a walk and found the perfect piece of fallen wood for a staff! The strange looks as I walked home were hilarious but I live in a unit block and bumped into my older neighbours who I never see! They asked was I into Karate and I explained that I was making a staff, for bushwalking! I can only imagine the conversation they had after that!
Discrimination…I grew up in an extremely small and narrow minded town in north Ga.It was occasionally unpleasant being “that witchy girl.” However my family was supportive.We were always encouraged to be true to ourselves.
ROFLMAO what a great list (I am still chuckling hehe)! Definitely a balance between who you can be open with, and who you cannot be open with, or to what degree. I am always thinking of the long-range repercussions of anything I may say to folks when I meet them. Luckily, it is getting a bit more tolerant here, and I have discovered many people who have the same struggle who are even more cautious than I am – and when I do open up a little (it is in “code” hehe), and they know what I mean, they are so relieved and talk to me more – usually after they pull me aside! 😉 This book is going to ROCK!!
Priscilla your very fortunate to have family that is supportive.All my immediate family are Christian…4 Preachers icluding DAD!mom/sisters/aunt/uncles/cousins/grandparents…Im so not like any of them allthough I love them…always was(different) and now I know why…finally I know why!!!That part is great!!!
Im 51 live alone with my son in the country.My (nosy) uncle saw my HUGE Cauldron in my work shop and I thought his eyes would fall out AND he would trip over himself…He so wants to tell my mother…all he has said so far is there is something she should know about me…Im 51 for goddess sake!!!Support myself and my son…take care of 2 acres of land, the house, the dogs,cats,turtles,fish and one mini pig…Leave me alone…Okay not small town mentality exactly but still!!!Blessed Be EveryOne Im Glad Your All Out There:)
I was always called a witch or devil worshiper in high school. No shops near me. And everyone trys to “save” me.
I live in “Coal Country” of central PA. Luckily I found a very open, eclectic group of Pagans online that get together fairly regularly only about 45 minute drive from me. The area tends to be Christian overload in a Mayberry setting!! I just moved from one small town (pop 1500) to another one just down the road (pop 1800). Church or bar on every corner and everyone seems to know that I don’t attend any of the churches. Funny thing is I just drove through the old town yesterday and noticed a very “witchy” wreath on a house and smiled, knowing that there was now another Pagan in my old town!!!! Have heard of a few where I live now, but travel about 45 minutes in any direction for a metaphysical store, meet-up, or UU.
Had to laugh about the “dating” thing. Was a worry for me when I re-entered that part of life after recent divorce. But decided that if they liked my personality and I liked theirs, the Pagan part would be OK.
I loved this one. I don’t think I live in a small city being I’m 45 miles west of Nashville but I will say there are no shops here. I liked this one (6. The funny looks from your neighbors because you have the most decorated house on the block for Halloween and you barely manage to put a wreath on your door for Christmas).
The one thing that gets me more than anything is when I guess when someone is born or there sign. It makes some wary as to what to say.
During an interview to teach in a small community, I was asked why I had been living in another country. They finally came out and wanted to know if I was a Morman on mission work. I hated every minute of living in ‘the closet’ while I taught there but it would not have mattered that my student test scores were always the highest and brought the school’s science scores out of the dumps. If anyone there found out I was pagan, I would have been blacklisted and forced out one way or another. Sad.
After storms, I gather fallen birch branches from around my neighborhood to use as staffs, besoms,and wands. I get a lot of quizzical looks, and one man asked me, “What are you doing with that switch?”
i think the hardest thing is not having anyone that accepts you, or anyone of similar interest. there are no shops near me, i have no wiccan/pagan/new age friends and can’t find any. there are no parks to practice my craft in. and i live with my parents who are such bible-thumpers that they made me get an exorcism when finding out i was into wicca 5+ years ago….it’s really really hard. 🙁 i live in Crestview FL now and i was in ST Paul MN, where we had pagan pruide day and everything. i had to leave my “sisters” and all my tools….sorry….after 3 years of feeling this way i’m jsut very sick of it…
Fortunately I grew up on a very large property in the country and could worship in peace out in the woods. A lot of people just assumed I was a loner or strange which is not uncommon in a community that feels that a trip to the sale barn where livestock is sold is a social event!I once had a Catholic friend freak out when she saw a pentagram drawn in the icey window of my room. She was terrified! She told her mom, a devout Catholic, her mom told my mom, a Jehovas Witness, and my life became hell. I left home at 15 and found my own way.It was 20 years before my mom could even talk about it with me!
Now I’m middle aged and live in a city it’s not much of an issue. When a package from a shop with ‘magical’ in it’s name arrived my mail woman said “I didn’t know your were a magician, do you do kids parties?’ I nearly peed my pants laughing. Gotta love e-bay!
I’m a Christian. I accept you. You have every right to do what you do, to think what you think, and to believe what you believe. You live in a great country. I push my beliefs on no one.
Just start looking for what fit,moved to Utah mormanville usa about a year ago..What a treat lol.Landlord tried to convert me,people at work look me like a whack-job.I say what on my mind.They gave me a nick-name sparky lol..
I have been interested in Wicca etc for decades but have never “committed” myself to it. A couple of years ago (in ne Fla) there was a pagan happening which was written up in the local paper. I emailed the head person whose address appeared. I was stunned at the hostile, hateful reply I received. Doing some research and making some queries it seems that pagan pride is closely affiliated with the radical gay pride mvmt and that many pagans have no idea what the real agenda is, which is radically anti religion, and especially anti christian. I would describe myself as leaning towards being a christian wiccan. IE, a belief in the divinity of Christ but not holding with the hierarchy, saints, sins, dogma, denominations, etc etc. I would like to hear some thoughts on this in a lucid, polite manner. I know nothing first hand, only what I’ve read and been told. Thanks. And thank God, that spring is finally here.
Trying to convince my parents that going into a church will not make God strike me down. Teaching my daughter that she has a choice about religion in a town that has one of the highest church per square mile ratios in the states. Convincing my friends that I don’t need to be saved, I’m happy the way I am.
Dear Sulla,
After reading your blog comment, I felt I just had to write you! Not all Pagans are so rude and anti-Christian. Unfortunately though, for many it’s a knee-jerk reaction – they came to Wicca or Paganism after a long battle or falling out with Christianity, and it takes them a long time to get rid of that baggage – the anger or disappointment has scarred them.
However, there ARE a lot of people like you out there, and I hope you don’t give up just because the first group you emailed was so unwelcoming. For starters, we have a great book out called ChristoPaganism by Joyce and River Higginbotham. It examines how and why some people are drawn to Paganism while still holding on to their Christian roots, or some of their Christian practices. It’s a very eye-opening book and I think you’d enjoy it. The authors interviewed a lot of types of “ChristoPagans” (though they don’t all call themselves that) so you can get a broad idea of what kinds of hybrids already exist out there.
Also this summer we have a new book coming out, a much more personal story called The Path of a Christian Witch. In this book, author Adelina St. Clair actually tells her story of the hardships she encountered when trying to walk the line between both faiths. In the end she worked out what felt the best for her, and she’s happy with it.
That doesn’t mean you won’t face discrimination, sneers and snide comments from both Christians and Pagans in the future – but it should give you hope that if, eventually, you work out a strong belief system for yourself, it won’t matter what anyone else thinks about it. It’s really your own path.
I wish you lots of luck in finding some more open-minded Pagans to learn from. And I hope you don’t mind, I will post this response on the blog as well, in case anyone else wants to chime in.
– Elysia
Dear Sulla,
Please don’t think that all Pagans are like that! I know of many christian witches and there’s nothing wrong with that! I was once a christian and it was very hard for me to let go of the christian beliefs (even though I was not being forced to–I just found that it didn’t “fit” into my heart.)
Keep your chin up and stand fast in your faith! Being a christian who also happens to practice magick is not a shameful thing! Don’t worry about what other people think, just do whatever tickles your fancy!
Brightest Blessings!
White Willow
AMITY
You said you lived in Crestview FL, I have news for you, I live in that area too, and there is a large network of pagans close by!!! Its just a matter of finding them! Look up Firedance Church of Wicca, its not in Crestview but people from all over, and all walks of paganism attend… there are more of us around than you may think…
Trying to explain the difference between the pentacle on my necklace and pentagrams to my sister’s catholic friends. My ten year old autistic son says ‘they are too superstious and you need more patience with them. Eventually they will get it, when they come out of this phase and back to reality.’
I also live in FL, a very small town out in the middle of nowhere. I am not able to wear any of my pagan jewelry or practice outside for fear my neighbors would hang me. (for real). I have had two really bad encounters already. The locals do not like the fact that I’m a pagan witch, and have been physically attacked because of it. I have been here for 5 yrs.(prev. lived in CT) I now know what it must have felt like back in the day (salem, ma). I wish that we could all live in love/peace and feel free to be who we are….one with nature and the universe…without fear of reprecussions. I feel I may have to move. how sad..Blessed BE
I live in suburban Ct and I bite my tongue to not speak out to correct ugly misinformation by Christians pushing their beliefs on me about what Paganism is to them, “devil worshiping etc,”.I’ve had to threaten calling the authorities to drive off pushy Jahovas Witness. I’m looking to sell here and move to the woods of MA and hopefully I can practise in peace. I do hope small town America stays off of my property I don’t mind driving. Having moved once to get away from small minded people, hasn’t helped, what happened to their own rule of ‘Judge not”? Let’s hope buying acres of woods helps.
To Jordon of Green bay, take a ride to appleton and visit Windows of Light, Angels forever, is one of the best shops in the nation. Right on college avenue across from the radison, they are also here on facebook. Blessed be@
Blessed Be to all my Sisters out there on their own, I came from a small town in the Midwest,I have been a solitary practioner for 40 years, and believe me that is a long time to be under wraps! But I have always known it was better to practice that way for fear of persecution and ridicule.Very few of my friends of many years know of my Craft.I knew at a very young age I was connected to Mother Earth far more than any one else I knew. A kinship with plants ,animals water and stones, I was always facinated by our liveing Earth. I think I was blessed to be “to the manner born” or what is called a Natural Witch. I also have the gift of seering.I hope one day to write a book myself lest all the knowledge I have be lost,I have three grandaughters and I see the Gift in one so maybe my legacy will not be lost…..Walk in Light My Sisters!
i just recently started getting into wicca. i consider myself to be a christopaganist now. the connection i feel to the earth is unmistakable. for the first time in a while i feel like im doin something right. i am an avid marijuana smoker and feelm as if the energy from the herb makes the earths energy amplified to me. i have incountered a situation where i am needing to quit but i feel as if i will lose my connection to the earth. are the any other things i could do to replace the feeling of being totally connected to mother earth? i am in no way looking for a buzz but a way to feel just as connected can any body help. “and it harm none, so shall it be done.”
I live in a small town or what can be taken for small town this side of Dallas. Personally, I make no holds bar on my worship and beliefs, opening ritual space in the back yard, which also lines a road and only blocked by chain link. I wear my pentacle in the open without fear, I won’t tolerate anything less than respect. I get people who slow as they go by while we are full bore during ritual, but until they come onto the property, and until they make a fuss, that’s all they are. I feel for those who have been physically injured, tolerance is unfortunately a word and not a practice for some. But, the kids love my house on Halloween, Yule is getting there… seems those animatronic yard deer have a dual meaning… hmmm
To #32 Tim –
If you’re not looking for a buzz, I would suggest reading “Voices of the Earth” by Clea Danaan. (You can find it here on our website, or check your public library.) She offers lots of suggestions for connecting with the earth in a deeper way, including the use of entheogens without actually ingesting them. In other words, you could still work with the plant spirit of marijuana without actually drawing the plant into your body (smoking, eating or drinking it). That still might be too tempting for you, but as I said, there are many other techniques in the book. Good luck!
Ive been a Pagan for prettey much my whole life, it just took me a while to find a name for it, I have been practicing for 20+ years. I grew up in Western Australia’s “2nd City” ha ha, it is actually just a large town, with many of the ppl still holding the small town small mind attitudes.
However I have been open about my beliefs from the beginning. I got the whole “Satanist, baby killer” thing from High school. When I was involved in begining the first open Coven in our area, it came again but this time from adults who should know better. I was attacked and knocked down in a local supermarket carpark, which was reported by the local papers (who I must say have been quite supportive), I had hate letters galore in my mail box, letters stuck under the windscreen of my car…and sadly a cat was killed rthat belonged to one of our coveners and hung up in their tree for their children to find.
I have persisted in being open about my beliefs and time has passed and the medias coverage of Paganism has finally opened ppls eyes. Once I knew every Pagan in town, these days I meet many ppl wearing symbols of our faith, they notice you look at their pentagram (or other symbol) look at the raven pentagram pendant I wear and smile. I have become a face of Paganism where I live and I am proud to represent my faith in a positive manner.
My children have gone to school as openly Pagan, and they have not suffered as I did but rather it has been an awakening for their teachers as I presented each new one with a booklet on our beliefs and practices, many came back with questions and support.
Now my grandchildren just learning with the small children’s wonder, the ways of their heritage will not have to face much of that predjudice and I am glad that if all I have faced by being open in a small town allows them the freedom to worship as they will…
Remember intolerance is simply uneducated ignorance!
Being a solitary witch is all you can be in the small town i live in.I would love to belong to a coven, but i am satisfied being a solitary. I live way back out in the county about 6 miles from the small town of Brodhead Ky. One good thing that i do enjoy about living in the sticks is that whatever ritual i do outside can be done without the odd looks of non-pegans.
Hi, I’m a christian in a small christian town .
I read the tarot everyday , also the bible .
I don’t wanna be called a christian witch but I
like the concept, and i know more about
paganism and their rituals than my catholic faith.
this is what i’m brought up with, but i just
can’t deny the appeal of pagan and earth based
faith. THANK YOU
I rent a house from a local Priest. Luckily, most items on my public-facing altar look kinda Christian 🙂
Hello, I am a Christian. Not sure how I came across this site. I did read through some of it though. I would like to apologize for Christian behavior. Even though I obviously think paganism is wrong, I do understand that people come from different backgrounds and think differently then I do. Some of the things on this post do make me laugh and sometimes I get just as sick about Christian behavior as you all do. Christ said to Love your enemies and to bless to those that curse you. It is a sad representation of Christ when you leave a situation not feeling loved or blessed. I would go on but don’t want to sound “preachy”. Best of luck to you all.
Living in a tiny town of barely 2000 people in Oklahoma is hard. Their is a church almost every other block. When it came out I was pagan my family shunned me and the people my age preached at me or tried to beat me up. It has not been fun. But I do still have my friends. They stay by my side. I have become a recluse. I’m almost afraid to leave the house. The only reason I go out is because I know that I can defend myself and if I should fall, my friends will get retribution. I am very open about it. The whole town knows that the boy they thought would be a preacher is now a pagan. I am very proud of it.
i live in montana, a little town of 50 people. yeah i said it 50! i have two little ones in elementary school people will say they are tolerant untill you let the cat out of the bag. i have recently purched a 24 inch long chain to put my pentagram on because i got a job and wanted to be extra sure that NO ONE sees it. the closest store is 80 miles away so running to the store if i forget anything…well you get the picture. so i have to stay in the broom closet. its a bummer to have to hid your self to protect your children and to protect your self from riddicule.
I live in a small Chritian town, was raised Christian, but have never really been accepted by them. I’ve always known I was different, but my mother always told me, “its all in your head, its not real”, and finally I started believing her. Well, I’m 40 now, my whole life having been controlled by my mother, and if I didn’t let her control me, she would administer “tough love” on me and ignore me until I changed my evil ways. Well long enough in the real world without even a mother, I changed my ways, and went back to Christianity, until 2 years ago when I turned 38 and something happened. What happened enabled me to SEE the true path, and once I put my foot down and proclaimed that I was sick and tired of hiding and being secretive about what I believed – my mother hasn’t spoken to me about anything of importance – only when my kids would be coming to see her – she won’t step foot in my house AND her and my step dad have convinced my daughter that I’m going to hell and if she stayed with me, she would too, so MY daughter moved in with my mother and everytime I ask her to come spend the night with us (her family) – she says, “No mom, I”m not coming over here until you stop practicing this demonic crap” Ok, so I’m totally in tears now because I’ve ALWAYS tried to please EVERYONE and for my mother to totally turn my daughter against me just so she and my step dad can PRETEND they have there own daughter is UNACCEPTABLE to say the least, AND TO TELL my daughter that her mother is going to hell. My step dad is a preacher in one of the biggest churches in this town so my mother THINKS just because she has the whole town OF CHRISTIANS (who by the way, not just mistreat but steal each others wives and husbands, cheat, LIE, and anything else that these half wit DECIEVING “wolves in sheeps clothing” can get away with) and THESE are the people teaching my daughter THEIR evil ways, which is NOT Christian, or at least the way God wants it to be. I’m sorry, but I’ve been VERY hurt by the Christian society in this town, and it feels like I’m trying to climb out of quick sand. They are the MOST negative, judgmental, hypocritical, egotistical, EVIL group of people I have ever met – and I will NEVER trust NOT A ONE OF THEM AS LONG AS I LIVE! If you can’t trust your own mother, who can you trust? And since I CAN’T trust my own mother, I guess we all see where I stand, right? So, I’m here, I have my two boys, 6 and 10 and my husband who loves me more than anybody EVER HAS, and thats all I need. The only reprecussions are the effects from my CHRISTIAN raising that basically mucked up my head, but my husband is dealing with it, he’s not liking it too much, but he WANTS me to trust again, so he’s dealing. BUT I FEEL LIKE SHIT putting him through this because of what THEY did to my head! So if there are any Christians out there reading this, SAVE IT! SAVE YOUR FREAKIN PITY for the God darn ASSHOLES who YOU listen to on a weekly basis who SAY they care and love everybody – THEY DON’T! And not only do they NOT love and care for EVERYBODY, but they DON’T shy away from mistreating people either. Whew, sorry, I don’t know where all that came from, guess I needed to vent! I’m sorry. I guess I’ve been more beat down than I thought. Sorry:( Please don’t respond viciously, I can’t take anymore cruelty from people. I’m truly NOT a bad person, I just want to live my life, the way I believe, without being condemned to hell by a certain group of hypocrits, who FYI, is there is a hell, they’re leading the way. Ok, I’ll stop now. Sorry.
I live in a small town in North Ga. Im a bit of a country/hedge witch. We have deer hunters galore and i am for ever hitting them up for their racks. Only the small ones,as they do not give up the big ones. I ask for some hides as well. The fellows that usually do this for me are always happy to give. They dont know I’m “witch” but just think I’m out there…lol! Everyone knows not to hunt behind me because I feed (my) deer. I get teased unmercifully for this, but its all in fun. However they know I’m serious and they can expect some shot in their ass if I catch them. I have a friend who hunts boar and he has indulged me. He just cant make it out though why I would wan boar bristle. I pass on lots of healing herbs,stones and lore to many I meet in town. Most people seem to enjoy and get something from my ways if it is given with good intention and positive energy. I in return recieve much back from them. I love being different in a small country town. It takes all kinds to make the world go round! Blessed Be:}
I live in a rural mountain community in north Georgia and the climate here is very conservative. While I may be out of the sexuality closet, my broom closet is shut around here. EVERYBODY seems to be an NRA gun-toting Tea Partier and the disdain for “queers” is bad enough…
The KKK actually showed up and rallied at the town square during the summer! Needless to say, there are no shops or groups that cater to folks like me and if I need witchy stuff, I have to travel a good hour plus to Atlanta.
I live in the largest town in WV. My parents are hardcore Christians and I went to a high school where I couldn’t be open about being a witch (not sure Pagan or Wiccan or just nonreligious witch). I pretended to be a Christian for 3 years and finally got sick of it when I went to college (another small town just more open minded) and had a wide range of Pagan and Wiccan friends. I’m open and honest and always wear the Pentacle my husband bought me for Christmas. I haven’t really had a chance to get into the holidays yet but me and my husband did try Samhain this past year. I was raised getting punished for even asking a question about a religion other than Christianity and didn’t know any other religions existed until I was in middle school and met an atheist. I came out as not believing and got taken to a psychiatrist, told them (I was young) and she tried to put me on antipsychotics.
I haven’t been attacked but I’ve been told “your going to hell” so many times and had my character attacked and even had people complain at work about my pagan jewelry (but as long as Christians can wear crosses I’ll wear mine). I took classes and got a certification as an astrologer and have done birth name numerology charts for friends and friends of friends. I am still looking for a way to make a living off of it but it’s useless here in this whole state. What are any good places to get a job in Numerology or tarot or divination?
I am 13 and i am a pagan and i have one really close friend who i tell everything to, only problem, she cant keep her mouth shut, we have a small middle school so news travels fast. Anyway, i told her i was pagan and without even knowing what it was she went around telling everyone….. and since then almost no one talks to me except her and she always says(because she’s Christian)”oh your going to go to hell” and i tell her i dont believe that and she tells everyone and i gets worse. I really wish people would educate themselves before assuming anything. This is what i think is the worst!
For those who feel persecuted by your families, friends, and communities, know that I am praying to the Goddess for you. Stay strong, you are not alone. The above list was quite funny, and being 2 hours away from Minneapolis/St. Paul (the Cities), in western Wisconsin, we don’t have a lot of resources here. It does get kind of tricky, but thank goodness for the local bookstore or I would be bored silly!
I was raised Catholic, but somehow the teachings never quite seemed to fit with what I believe. I remember first coming across the term “wiccan” when I was about eight, and my mother got very upset about it. In the past couple of years, I’ve had more and more moral qualms about the church and the general intolerance that I saw there, and so recently I came to the conclusion that I am pagan. Even so, I wasn’t completely sure so I started praying/meditating, trying to find the name of my own goddess. When it came to me, I felt this incredible peace and this sense of “Oh. Right. That’s what it’s supposed to be.” When I told my mother (or, rather, when she found out) I was afraid that I would have a hard time convincing her that I’m not bound for hell. My mom understands, but I know that I’ll come across many who won’t. I guess I’ll just deal with that when I come to it. I still believe in Christ, but more as a brother than as a father figure, and in Mary as an aspect of my own Mother Inanna. For the first time in years, I feel like I am on the right path spiritually (even if I still have a lot to learn!) I suspect this site will be of great help with that. Blessed be!
I am an electic pagan and I live in a small town in MO. Mostly Christians are hear and they don’t know I am a pagan but the people who do think I am insain when I say somthing on my belifs. I only know one other pagan in the holl town so I ask. If you live in eldorado springs plees meet me in the highschool gim during buldog hr. I sit next to the red desk on the bleachers.
I’m in a small town of 20,000 the problem here is that’s somewhat city typed so there are no grassy/green areas or parks to practice at. Everything here is very industrial, there are no trees where I live. I have some unusual people “eye” me for my books. Well, I consider it funny but I know there offended by my individuality 🙂 I’m happy we have many stores but no “pagan or new age” shops here. So I have to travel to San Antonio for that. If I practice outside, I’ll get shipped to the authorities. Goddess bless everyone!