Topic suggested by Chirotus. Thank you! Most people don't completely remember their early childhood. Freud suggested this was the result of our embarrassment over ideas and actions of our early youth and called it "motivated forgetting." However, many people remember certain events from that period that had a strong effect on them. One that I remember was my first experience of magick. The Background When I was five years old I watched my father die of a heart attack. My mother couldn't deal with maintaining a house, raising me and my older brother, trying to find a job, and the loss of her husband. My brother and I were sent off to relatives while my mother received help dealing with